"this world is like a book and those who do not travel read only one page of it" from(i don know) .. My photos dont let me down like my words i guess.So i post more photos than writing lots........

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Unanswered Questions in my head??????

22 years of my meaningless existence in this world----

People always told me --"be yourself"

I also beleived at some level that I should be myself and I am what I am and all that........

But the big question is what is that myself--How do I define that "myself"..
Does being myself end with just doing what I feel like doing or is it more than that..
The factors that influence that myself are what you see ,hear and feel about people and things around you...at least to some extent definitely I feel.
So I thought the only way to find out what I am and what I want is just by trying out different things.So I tried a lot of things and this is what happened.

My Addictions

Travel
Trekking
Movies
People
Change(Yeh I love change and new things.I get easily bored with stuff.So I need to keep exploring new things)


Trying not to get addicted to

Cigarettes
Alcohol
Drugs
People
My Job


There are very few things I have tried.
But there are so many things in this world to try out and I have one lifetime..
So how do I narrow down my "To Try" list so that I will die with the satisfaction of putting my time in this world to better use.And I suck at most of the things I try too.And oh God this is a weird post and I cannot even read the preview myself...................Yeh I found out I suck at writing...

25 Comments:

Blogger Mridula said...

I guess as long as we keep trekking and getting out of the city rut, we will do fine!

May 02, 2006 7:01 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

who are you?

not about what you like, what you hate, where you are or what you do.

its about what your are in the universe, in humanity and in life.

Thats the first question of our existance - one many of us go through life without adequately answering.

May 02, 2006 9:10 PM

 
Blogger The Alchemist said...

Define yourself in you own paramenters - I think the main thing to keep in mind - is do what makes you happy - reagrdless of what other people think of what makes you happy or the reasons for it -

May 03, 2006 3:14 AM

 
Blogger Lore said...

the things you like or dislike are part of your identidy, but the question "who am i?, how do i define myself" is more deeper, if you start thinking on it.... it's about what do you like to do, what fears do you have, your reactions to different situations, your response to yourself an to the world, what makes you feel happy/angry/desperate/sad.... what are your purpose for life, your challenges, what habilities do you have, your thoughts, what do you feel in different situations and your creativity to solve problems, what am i doing here, how would i help others, how can i do valuable things, how is your character..... usually people wear a mask, and try to recreate another "myself" to others... being yourself is just about open your heart, your soul.....

May 03, 2006 8:00 AM

 
Blogger backpack_everyday said...

@mridula:Very true thats what keeps me sane..

@fatty:Hey u have made my question list all the more complicated.I am still wandering in search of somethinh not even knowing what it is.

@adam:Thats a very good point man.Point taken for more pondering..

@lore:
The things you mentioned are exactly wat I searching for and I travel ,explore,work,live to find them..But i am not sure if I am getting any better in the search process.

May 03, 2006 2:00 PM

 
Blogger The Alchemist said...

Please visit Infinity - I have a new post that I would love your reactions to, I need some feedback on an image - please help!

May 04, 2006 9:18 AM

 
Blogger anup keerrthi said...

ooi vatsa!!
i'm not saying anything, but jus stopped by ur blog !@#!!!

May 04, 2006 12:57 PM

 
Blogger Merili said...

Hehehehe, actually you don't suck at writing, i like reading your blog. As for the to do list, you can always upload it on your blog and then track it as you do each thing and we will track it with you...
As for the passions, just emphasize them and your to do list will be realised very easily :) Good luck.

May 04, 2006 9:24 PM

 
Blogger Kris said...

Your writing suck? boy, what about mine?..gheez, dont even dare to think -_-

Be yourself = study /find a job you are passionate at. Do what you like , be with people that accept you for who you are..bla bla bla, yeah its so wide of perspective ..hard to define.

To me, Just be happy !!

ps - I'm easily bored with stuff ,too..whats the cure?

May 05, 2006 8:59 PM

 
Blogger Musafir said...

the bottomline is U !!

existence is mere survival & i think u're doing much more than that...

...the search is a journey, and its not a destination that you reach & say 'i've arrived'...

there nothin gud or bad abt the way you do things, cos thats what makes it unique... U

May 06, 2006 1:49 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

there is no real me behind my face, i am millions of faces, masks, people, actions and thoughts, like the millions of cells inside me. Our names confuse us. Dogs don't know they have names. And we would be human only if we got to being 'animal'. When you go inside, you'll find that you're not there. And that's why you can change like devils and gods, take forms and go mad.

Know that I love you,
Know I don't care,
Know that I see you
Know I'm not there.

Know-Nick Drake

May 07, 2006 2:35 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

vathsan - well no, the questions should be simpler.

What you love, what you do, where you are - they supplementry. They don't make us.

Right now I think you are a living, thinking and searching being determined to live and love. Isn't that enough? for now at least...

Maybe you see it differently, maybe you're looking - but you can only be what you are in this moment - nothing more and nothing less.

May 07, 2006 3:24 PM

 
Blogger backpack_everyday said...

@Merili:Thanks a lot and thats very sweet...We will track it with u..I am touched.

@fotoaddict:Thats a nice .be with ppl that accept u for who u r?I am trying to find them .......

And abt getting bored easily-------keep trying new new things and explore .....I don know if its the rt solution but it works out for me sometimes.

@musafir:True, I always believe that there is a difference between existing and living.Thanks for the comment.I feel good.

@crossfield.Thats great.A good perspective.Now thats wat I am talking about.....Get a new dimension to look at things everyday....

@fatty:hey babe thats right.Live for the moment.U can only define ur actions and reactions for that instant.Given varied circumstances and conditions we may act different but thats not important.Whats important is wheather u did wat u felt like doing at that moment.
Thanks I feel good and better.......


@@@@all:hello everyone thanks a million for ur incredible comments.Honestly it has helped me and I feel much better now.
Thanks againg.

May 08, 2006 1:57 PM

 
Blogger Enemy of the Republic said...

Well, I know about addictions to drugs, cigarettes and people. I'm a lightweight, so alcohol never worked for me. Addicted to work--only to get out of the house and get paid.

You write very well. And you take great photos. Excellent to be talented--very good. And Fatty wouldn't bother with you if you were no good.

May 11, 2006 2:52 AM

 
Blogger backpack_everyday said...

@enemy:Welcome and thanks for the comment............

May 11, 2006 1:32 PM

 
Blogger Patty said...

Reading this post & the positive comments has helped me as well. I doubt I could add anything much.

i'll be 22 next week & even though i haven't done anything extrordinary in my lifetime, when so many other people have, i'd hate to think of my existence in this world as meaningless. and you shouldn't think that either!

There are so many things I'd love to do & places to see, but I know I'll never be able to do everything I want to do. I suppose I'll have to be satisfied with whatever I end up doing, people I'll meet & myself.

I don't think it's weird, but way too much to try to think about & sort out. don't put too much thought into it. try to be happy with whatever your current situation is. it usually just requires a positive attitude. sometimes i smile when i'm not so happy(smiling for no reason), which ends up cheering me up most of the time. think positive, be positive.

keep away from cigarettes, alcohol & drugs. i smoked on/off when i was 14-17. haven't touched one in 5 years. i've rarely had alcohol & rarely done drugs. thankfully they didn't affect me much and i didn't end up having any regrets.

why is being addicted to people a bad thing?

i love these encouraging & inspiring lyrics from the song, Return To Innocence:

Don't be afraid to be weak
Don't be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence
If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny
Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence
That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence

Have a great day, Vathsan! :)

May 13, 2006 5:36 PM

 
Blogger backpack_everyday said...

@patty:Thanks a lot.elcome to the 22 club :-). I will keep ur points and mind..And beng addicted to ppl is not bad but if u had some different experience then ur perspective caaan be only can be different.And thanks a lot fot returning to innocence.thats some real good lyrics.And I am not addicted to cigaretts or alcohol or drugs,they r just the few of the things I tried for just experience sake.I am out of them and I just donwant to get addicted to them thats all.

May 13, 2006 8:05 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Totally struck a chord with me on this one dude...Most our life we spend crossing off each default selection from that invisible checklist for parents n society:
schooling->college-->Work-->MBA-->Wife-->House-->Kids..etc
Would like to experience everything ..But watever i do, the magnetism of the nxt to-do detaches me from the present...Finally i think we ll be jus a traveller in life ...passing on ,not reaping ;)...

June 29, 2006 5:56 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

BTW sridhar here and yeah ur writing sucks :D

June 29, 2006 5:58 AM

 
Blogger backpack_everyday said...

Hi Sridhar......welcome and yeh its rt or maybe..

August 25, 2006 1:48 PM

 
Blogger backpack_everyday said...

@anonymous: I think I have found it sometimes but it goes away then and search again.Nothinng is permenant.

November 27, 2006 3:15 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

yeah, ppl can be dangerous ;p

some *very* nice pics

December 15, 2006 1:39 AM

 
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